On the brink of a breakdown.
If one person gets on my bad side tonight, the waterworks and a few choice words will start flowing.
EVERYTHING IS SO FUNNY RIGHT NOW. i MEAN, JUST LOOK AT THIS.
sorry about the caps lock…to lazy to go back and fix it.
I’m really sorry.
this picture is my life
Oh hi. There’s no feeling like the feeling of accepting yourself for who you are. Honestly I would never step foot in public without straightning my hair or putting on makeup. But you have to remember you’re beautifful regardless of how many times you fry your hair with a flat iron or cake your face with makeup. Accept you. You’re worth every moment you’ve spent on this planet.
emotions.
yesterday when i left kats house i started crying. i cried liked a girl for a good half an hour. i love being with kat. she is like my older sister but were almost the same people. she is like my rock.
today me and scott were laying arround and talking about how i was going to leave. i started to cry softly. scott held me untill i stopped.
i wonder how he puts up with me. im such a handful. oh gosh i love that kid.
i cant wait to go and get out of this damn hell hole. but i dont want to leave everyone at all. its heatbreaking to think about it. but this is important and its my dream.
its only 64 days.
i can do this.
but im going to cry. a lot.
becuse im such a damn girl and i have god damn emotions.
my weekend.
i had an awesome weekend at legends. its a real eye opener to get outside of the “linden bubble” and i love it. doing something i love so much with people who feel the same is awesome. ive never felt that way about marching band in linden. drum corp is sweet. im so pumped for the summer. and im excited to tour. its something new and i want this so much i cant even explain it.
then today i went to kats house and had a really good time. we swam in the pool. joked arround. and it was so simple but it was so sweet. i loved every bit of it. i didnt want to leave but my parents made me
i dont think they understand that i do not want to leave just yet. i want to spend all the time i can with my best friends and scott before i leave. they dont understand that im going to be in a whole different “world” for 65 days. its going to hurt to not be with my friends the whole summer. especially now that i have more than like 3. i just want to spend my last 11 days of fredom with everyone closest to me. not just my mom and dad.
